But watching blinking words appearing on a screen felt more like staring into a strobe than actually reading. Next lesson: Follow the guide as it highlights words from left to right. Everyone is laughing, except you. You don't get it. The person who told the joke realizes you don't get it, and says to you, Just think! They tell the joke again, slower this time, and say, Don't you get it! It was this sense of inferiority that planted the first seeds of in me. That experience of feeling left out is with me often, even now, but today I use it as fuel for --for taking the pain of disrespect, discrimination, and regret and using it as fuel to propel me forward. I call it because life on the streets is raw. On the streets, people will put you down and disrespect you and take advantage of you. On the streets, you're alone. You lack resources and support, and you have to fight for your basic needs. When will you perform the tasks that give you energy, like exercise, study, or connecting with friends? Setting expectations about these things on a monthly basis will help you make choices about where you will spend your energy so that you won't have to instinctively or reactively make them in the moment. Remember that creativity craves structure. When you establish effective boundaries, you are focusing your creative energy rather than allowing it to run rampant. During your quarterly checkpoint you will be looking at your life rhythm as a whole and establishing priorities. Are there significant milestones on the horizon that need to be accounted for? Are there important principles in your life that are being neglected and need to be revisited?

Are there projects that you've always dreamed of pursuing but can never find the energy to get moving on? Now is the time to get these on paper and to start analyzing what can be done over the next quarter to initiate them. Again, your eye is primarily on energy management, so you are looking for opportunities to be strategic and wise about your life and which projects you pursue according to what will be required of you. She makes me nervous, but I can hide that. It's definitely showtime. You first, she says. Get to know me. It's more of a command than a request. I look down at the questions Mrs. Vardeman passed out for prompts. What is your favorite food? I don't think that's technically a food, but I write it down anyway. I read off the next prompt. Bladder cancer nearly always originates in the (transitional epithelial) cells that make up the innermost lining of the bladder, which explains why it is also called transitional cell carcinoma. It is the fourth most common newly diagnosed malignancy among men (ranked eighth among women), and twice as prevalent among white men as either African American or Hispanic men. Not surprisingly, because it is an environmentally caused cancer and takes years of exposure to toxins to grow to a diagnosable size, it is more likely diagnosed among men in their sixties and seventies. Bladder cancer will cause blood in the urine, and other possible symptoms include pain while urinating, frequent urination, and/or feeling the need to urinate without voiding. It can be detected through a routine screening of a urine specimen. Once bladder cancer is suspected, a definitive diagnosis can be determined by CT scan and then a biopsy. The most widely used therapies are surgery, radiation, and chemotherapy, either alone or in combination.

PANCREATIC CANCER The pancreas is a pear-shaped, 6-inch gland near the stomach which produces both fluids to help in digestion and insulin to help control blood sugars. Pancreatic cancer is the fourth leading cause of cancer-related death among men in the United States (behind lung, prostate, and colorectal). The bubble concept allows you to contemplate your thoughts and feelings for a fixed period of time. It provides a structure for seeing into yourself without analyzing what you see, and it forces you to focus on one thing at a time. This meditation is likely to take more practice than the mantra meditation. Although you may find it enjoyable and relaxing right from the beginning, you may also discover that it puzzles you. Try to ignore the questions. Over time, the confusion should go away. Start with ten minutes at a time. Use a clock as before. Stick with it for the entire period. If you decide you like this meditation, try it for fifteen or twenty minutes. Here are some examples: My ideal job comes to me easily and effortlessly. I easily make the connections I need to bring my new business to life. I am worthy and deserving of love. I trust my intuition to guide the way. Full-moon affirmations These will be based upon what the full moon shone a light on, and what you realised stood in your way and what you need to release.

Remember that affirmations need to be in the positive present tense, so take what you want to let go of and find the opposite. Here are some examples: If you realised during the waxing moon that you tend to procrastinate as a sabotage tactic, your affirmation may be: `I am productive and get things done right now'. Try to read the entire group of highlighted words, rather than one word at a time. The text was divided into three columns, each highlighted at a time. I had to move my eyes from the left-hand column, with one group of words, to the middle column, and then on to the right-hand column. After a couple of practice rounds, it was time to measure my own reading speed. I skimmed through a short text about the Battle of Pea Ridge, then answered a set of questions. I read as fast as I could, jumping from one group of words to the next, not turning back, just as I had learned from Buzan. 425 wpm, comprehension 66%. Did I understand the text I had just read? Not really, but well enough to get a 66% comprehension score, which was the same that the world record holder had achieved, although she was reading ten times my speed. It was already late in the afternoon, and the fifty essays and the two articles were still unread. You have to use your mistakes as a reason to rise above. Of course, you don't have to literally be on the streets to have . As we'll see shortly, even people whom others might see as privileged can draw on the disrespect and discrimination and regret they experience. Anyone can learn to be a fighter, a survivor, to do what it takes to make it. I also want to be clear that isn't the same as street smarts--being aware of the world around you, having common sense, or excelling at smooth talk. Being street smart can work to your advantage, but it doesn't necessarily mean you're Street Resilient. is much more.

Someone with is a fighter. They know it's up to them to channel their pain and use it as positive energy. is channeling your emotions--guiding them, directing them, and using them for a productive purpose, instead of letting your emotions use you. You want to be poised to bring your best effort to all your projects, even the personal ones. If the upcoming quarter contains several new work initiatives, build rocket-powered personal jet pack might not be the best objective to initiate, but write proposal for rocket-powered personal jet pack may work. This quarterly planning time is also when you want to get any new and intriguing work projects in the mix. Are there things that you've wanted to suggest or pursue but haven't because it's never a good time? See if there's any aspect of the idea that you could begin to implement this quarter. Make certain that you're taking into account every upcoming commitment, milestone, and project. If there are especially busy seasons for your family (birthdays, anniversaries, et cetera), take those into account as you are setting expectations for the upcoming quarter. Whole-life planning recognizes that your creative process is the result of the merging of all your experiences, skills, and passions. When you are able to strategically and purposefully structure your life so that you are giving your best energy to what's most critical, ideas will naturally start to flow in situations when you need them most. As mentioned, you will be learning more about how to integrate this practice with all the other practices in the article on checkpoints. What's your favorite saying? Is that really the question? I nod, looking over my shoulder. The short girl is laughing at something Luis said. Blair thinks for a minute, twisting one strand of black hair around and around her finger. Don't touch my hair, phone, face, or boyfriend, she finally says. She's serious.